For the past couple of weeks, I’ve just been in this place where I know what I want and what I need to do to achieve those things, but no matter what, distractions and stumbling blocks tend to come out of nowhere and I’m no longer grounded.
I’d feel like I’m losing control of everything that’s around me and I’d also lose focus of the personal goals that I’ve set for myself. And mind you, I get extremely anxious when I feel like I’m no longer on solid ground; next thing I know I’m having 3 anxiety attacks a week and I’ve completely forgotten about my goals. And now I’m here, stuck. Wondering how I’m going to get out of this funk.
It’s not too cool being in a place like this.
While I walking home today from spending my money unnecessarily at the grocery, I ended up passing the mental health clinic in my neighborhood and it made me think back to that day in July last year when I was diagnosed for MDD. Things haven’t been too alright since then because it’s one thing to think that you have a mental illness…
It’s another thing to know that you actually do have it and it’s something that you have to battle to overcome. It adds an additional weight on your shoulders and it makes everything extra difficult.
But like always, we’ll continue to fight. Some days are going to be worse than others. Some days you are going to lose the war.
But tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow is a new war, ready to be won.
PS. I’m so sorry for being so inconsistent. This post is kinda like my reason why. I promise (pinky promise this time) to post more often and to keep reaching out to the MH community. I’m actually working on so many ideas for my blog. But, in due time. Thank you for reading and don’t forget to like and follow!