Okay so I definitely don’t have “complete” peace of mind but allow me to just say that the way I am now, the way my mind is… I’m kinda glad it’s there.
I’ve been through a lot.
As a 20 year old woman, I honestly don’t think I should be dealing with so much. Or maybe that’s the rave these days. I’m not too sure. But I’m young. I’m still a baby in many people’s eyes (especially my parents ugh). And I’ve been through some shit.
The last few years have been really testing. I gave up many times. I’ve wanted to end my life on numerous occasions but I kept finding myself holding on to this thin thread of hope. With my dear life, mind you.
And I’m glad I haven’t lost my mind.
I still manage to function (barely) on most days. I eat, I shower, I watch memes… I’d call that functioning. Yeah. I’m a functional adult.
I still manage to get up, dust myself off and keep going. I still manage to wipe my tears after a night of slobbering sobbing. I still manage to blog. I still manage to laugh and smile. I still manage to live.
All while holding on to this thin thread of hope.