2018 was a shitty year. There. I said it.
2018 was the annoying co-worker that insists on sending you those generic good morning posts on WhatsApp every morning. 2018 was that one pair of jeans you own that gives you a massive camel toe every time you wear it. 2018 was thigh chafing… *cringe*.
But despite the living embodiment of shit that 2018 was, I learned a lot. In the hardest ways possible. And I am incredibly grateful for all the lessons, because now I feel as though I’m going to be able to grow a lot more in 2019. New resolutions in place. New mindsets. New habits. New me. (Quote that for your Tumblr posts.)
I’m going to quickly share those lessons with you, and I hope it helps you in preparation for the new year.
- Obtaining self-love is really freakin’ hard, but it’s not impossible: I started experiencing self-esteem issues at the age of 11. I always felt left out because of my overly weird personality and because of the way I looked. I’m 21 years of age now, and I never thought back then that I’d even be remotely close to starting my journey towards self-love… But here I am. Fighting every obstacle that comes by way. Losing the fight on bad days. But managing to get my ass up and kick some ass. It’s possible. You just have to be patient… Taking each day at a time.
- You’re still pretty strong, even at your lowest: In my mental health update, I briefly mentioned my suicide attempt. The months, weeks, days that led up to that moment made me so low. I didn’t want to fight for my happiness anymore. I didn’t want to live. Up to now, I have no idea how I managed to find that small nugget of strength within me but I did. And it reminds me every day that no matter what I go through, I still have strength within me to push on. So don’t give up.
- Don’t underestimate the power of a good support system: It’s always good to incorporate a good support system in your life. That could mean family members, close friends, online communities etc. I’ve found most of my support in close friends and online communities… They’ve helped me through some dark times and I’m forever grateful. You always need someone to hold you up when you feel like you can’t make it.
- Boundaries are extremely important: The year hasn’t even ended yet and I’ve learnt this just a few days ago. There are going to be people in your life that feel as though they have some measure of entitlement to you. No one on this planet is entitled to your time, your space, your money, your effort, your energy etc. NO ONE. And these same people want to be more vex with you when you put them in their place and remind them that you owe them nothing. Put those boundaries up. Guard yourself.
- Sometimes the people you love the most, turn out to be the most toxic for you. Let them go: I’ve lost one major person in my life this year. Someone I always thought would be with me until the very end. But to cut a long and useless story short, I realized that this person wasn’t good for me. This person that I loved with all my heart was a threat to my well-being. I won’t go on any further. Just know that I’m very happy with my decision and though I miss them at times, I sure as hell don’t miss the stress.
I hope the lessons that I’ve learnt help you out in some way or another in the coming year and I wish every one of you a prosperous, healthy, successful and kickass new year. Go get ’em!